Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Senior Citizens

Senior year of high school, which was only 4 years ago, I remember walking around campus like I owned the place. In a way we did; our class held the top positions in our Student Government, almost all of my friends and I were leaders in our respective clubs, sports teams and other organizations, plus, all the underclassmen wanted to be the big Seniors who were leaving for college next Fall . . .

It's kind of a different story on campus here at UNC. There are some similarities; for example, many of my friends are leaders in their respective organizations, and we still have lots of football and basketball games to go to throughout the year. But the big difference is when you introduce yourself to the underclassmen they get a scared look in their eye . . . not because we're the big seniors, but because they feel sorry for us. I mean, the majority of us won't be going to grad school in Chapel Hill, as the case for me. Then they ask us the dreaded questions . . . "what are you doing after graduation," "how is the job search going," "are you staying in Chapel Hill, heading home or working somewhere else?" This is where I panic. Just ask mom. Since this summer I've been freaking out because I have absolutely no idea what I want to do after graduation. At the beginning of this summer I wanted to open a wedding/event planning business, then I wanted work in New York as a consultant, now I think it will be cool to live at home and open my own store with my best friend Bracey or maybe go to Charlotte and work at Bank of America or Red Ventures. I literally change my mind every two weeks. I go through at least 180 job openings a day trying to find something that catches my attention. So that leaves me applying for everything I can find that I'm qualified for, which leads to stress, which leads to mom saying, "I don't know why you're so worried; you have a home to come back to after graduation while you look for jobs." She's right, per-usual. It's just really hard to stay patient during this time when friends are accepting job offers and sending their resumes to companies. It's so easy to say its all in God's hands but its a lot harder to be fully relaxed in that belief. I know He's going to handle it and that many opportunities will come my way but, like my mother, I like to be in control. And I'm not. That's something I've got to wrap my mind around when it comes to resting the future in His hands.

So for now, my friends and I are the big "Senior Citizens" on campus, the ones everyone feels bad for because the "best days of our lives" are coming to a close. I know they're wrong . . . I'll definitely be working until I'm recognized as a senior citizen by the restaurants who will give me discounts, which is gonna be awesome! But the adventure doesn't end in May 2013. A new chapter will have just begun!

And don't worry Mom, after graduation you know I can't go too far from family, friends, sweet tea and my cat . . .

 

"She laughs with no fear of the future for her hope is in me" Proverbs 31:25


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